I had blood work early this morning. My RE called me this afternoon to let me know I was pregnant and that if things keep progressing the way they are Coen will have a sibling soon. My beta level level was 228! I go back on Saturday for another blood draw and hopefully my numbers are doubled. I forgot how nice it is to find out early but also how stressful it can be to worry about if everything is alright and counting down the days until you’re out of that danger zone. FRERs are still getting darker. Here are today’s and yesterday’s tests.
FET #1 for Baby #2
I had my first lining check last Wednesday but it was a no go. My lining was only 6.3mm and at best it needs to be at least 8 before they schedule the transfer. I was bumped up from 2mg Estrace twice a day to 2mg three times a day. I had a second lining check on Monday and my lining was 8.6 but due to scheduling they had me come in one more time this past Wednesday. My lining at that point was 8.8mm. We started PIO shots Wednesday night and we have transfer this Monday at 10:30am! I am excited/nervous for the transfer. It has been over two years since our last transfer for Coen. I don’t want to feel the heartache of a failed cycle but I also know that it took a lot last time. I am not expecting it to work the first time or the second. I am going into it with the knowledge that it worked once before and there is no reason it could not happen again. We are also only transferring one blast which might decrease our chances a bit.
FET #4 Update
I didn’t think I would be writing this but I have been cleared to start a frozen embryo cycle! I honestly thought we may not even get the chance to try for #2. Why is it we always think the worst case scenario? It looks like all is good with my liver from a biopsy point. My gastro will be monitoring my liver levels during the cycle just in case. I am also waiting to hear on the genetic test for Celiac disease. I started Estrace Friday night and return for an ultrasound on March 3rd. Depending on my lining, we will most likely be transferring the week of March 8th with a beta right before our 4th anniversary.
The hubby and I don’t celebrate Valentine’ Day but we did spend the night away for a wedding 2 hours north. It was only the second time we have left Coen overnight but it was good to get away especially after the biopsy and stress I had been dealing with. I did indulge in a few cocktails and it was probably the first time I have had over two drinks in about two years. It would have been relaxing if we didn’t hit a storm both ways there and back. A little pic from the day.
FET #4 Update
Life has been busy and a lot has happened in regards to starting our journey for #2. In January, I finally got my period after 30 days of estrace and 10 days of provera. It was just a reminder how much I dislike being on hormones but as always it’s just another thing you just have to deal with. Over a week ago I got my meds and the FET was approved. All I had to do is stop the BCPs and wait for AF to start the Estrace but now we (I) have another barrier……. Since I had Coen I have been dealing with some stomach issues. I have always had digestive problems all my life but this was different. I thought it was my gallbladder and had an ultrasound a few months ago to find out I just had some “sludge” or debri in my gall bladder. It could be causing my problems but I figured I would deal with it as it was not necessary to have my gall bladder removed. After a few weeks of more stomach issues, sleepless nights in pain and beginning to fear food I finally saw the Dr. Long story short I also have elevated liver enzymes and have tested positive to having some autoimmune antibodies (Antinuclear Antibodies) in blood. The two may or not be related but I have to go for a liver biopsy Thursday.
The FET is postponed until after the biopsy. It wasn’t until I started typing this post a few days ago that I started to put two and two together. I googled ANA positive and failed IVFs and found a ton of info. This made me nauseous. I am starting to wonder if this was my problem all along and the reason for failed implantation? Oddly enough the time that actually took I did take Claritin and Benadryl which I had seen was an autoimmune protocol that some other women had done. I figured it was worth a try. I am not sure if this helped or it was just a coincidence. All I know is I have one beautiful little miracle. The problem is my heart selfishly aches for another and I am not so sure it is in the cards for us now depending on my diagnosis. Even if things look good I wonder if I will continue to have failed cycles. I am not ready to give up yet and until we figure out what is wrong I am trying to have faith. We are already so blessed with one perfect little man.
Ever have one of those days you just feel like no matter what you do things just go wrong? Today is one of those days. I didn’t sleep well and came into work having to deal with chaos. I just got off the phone with the clinic and I am starting to feel like we may never start FET #4. My body is not cooperating and I am beginning to be come frustrated. So far 7 days of Provera and nothing and then 10 days of Estrace plus 5 days of Provera with only spotting. Now I have to go on 30 fregin days of Estrace with the dose doubled and 10 days on Provera all just to get a period so I can do the basic testing. The worst part is the nurse saying she wasn’t sure why they even had me do only ten days of Estrace because that never works. Argh. It was just more time wasted. I never thought it would be this difficult or that my body wouldn’t get back to normal on it’s own. Why did I even stop breastfeeding at a year? Part of me just wants to quit before we even start BUT if I quit when it got hard I wouldn’t be seeing that cute little face every morning. So back on the fat pills starting tomorrow. Unless I change my mind……
Enough of my rant and the poor me because there are so many out there without even one child. I just need to learn to enjoy this journey as much as I can. We had a few pics taken last week for our Christmas cards this year…..here are a few that we have on it!
FET #4 Update
There must be something with infertility that always has us waiting. I have weaned Coen well over a month ago now and still no period. I have taken a week of Provera and waited two weeks after….nothing. Now I am on Estrace for 10 days and then Provera and will wait some more. Once it starts I can get all the tests done so we can submit to insurance and then start a FET cycle. I forgot how much I hate waiting. Luckily, I have a great little distraction that keeps me going every day.
I have been quite frustrated the way the scale has been going up since weaning. My body is doing what it wants despite me watching what I eat, exercising and taking into account that I don’t need the extra calories. Now to add in the hormones I am bloated, uncomfortable, pants are getting tighter and I am starting to not sleep well. Oh the joys of estrogen…..
On a positive note, I did find a picture of one year ago after having Coen and compared it to a picture from this weekend. I have made a lot of progress over the year. I also have started to realize that despite weaning my body is not mine again. It will all be worth it though.
Life is busy as expected with a 13 month old. Some things have gotten easier and some have gotten more difficult. I think the biggest improvement is his bedtime routine has gotten better and he is sleeping all the way through the night. We give a sippy cup of milk and a little snack at 7 pm, read at 7:20 and he goes down without a peep. There are also no 5 am wake ups every morning. He sleeps most days until 6:30am. Pretty sure he was playing me and if I just did a little sleep training I could have gotten this months ago.
The little guy has been sick the past few weeks with a cold and fever. I took off last Monday when he was feeling the worst and his fever was 101. Luckily I think he is finally getting better but he just has that lingering cough. Poor guy. He got sick last year but it was nothing like this. There was nothing I could do to help and all he wanted was to cry and give hugs.
I am looking forward to a 5 day weekend and some yummy food for Thanksgiving! We will be hosting Thanksgiving but it will be small. Just the hubby, Coen, my sister, father and me which means lots of turkey leftovers! We are doing family pictures on Friday and I am excited to see how they come out. If they are good we will be using one of them for Christmas Cards. We already got pics with Santa this weekend. They didn’t come out so great because Coen was just about to break out crying. I think the stranger fear is in full effect.