I had blood work early this morning. My RE called me this afternoon to let me know I was pregnant and that if things keep progressing the way they are Coen will have a sibling soon. My beta level level was 228! I go back on Saturday for another blood draw and hopefully my numbers are doubled. I forgot how nice it is to find out early but also how stressful it can be to worry about if everything is alright and counting down the days until you’re out of that danger zone. FRERs are still getting darker. Here are today’s and yesterday’s tests.
FET #1 for Baby #2
Transfer went so smoothly on Monday. We transferred one Grade A blast. In the past with my retroverted cervix it has been painful and the Dr always struggles with getting the placement right. The only time that it went this smoothly was when it actually worked…….but think pregnancy just changed things a bit and made it a little easier. I am not stupid. I have been in this position too many times. I can’t compare this time to any other one. I have cycles I was positive I was pregnant that I wasn’t and the one that worked that felt like other failed cycles. I took the day of transfer off but decided to go back to work the day after. I kind of wish I didn’t because that day ended up to be quite stressful. My boss gave her notice which leaves me with one new guy that has been there a month and one other that was leaving two days after my boss and one person who hasn’t started yet. The good thing is it will be an opportunity for me to grow before they decide what to do with the position. I also have not been following orders as far as not lifting heavy items…Coen is almost 30lbs so there really is nothing I can do!
As far as symptoms, I have felt the normal progesterone ones…..on and off cramps, backache and random twinge or pulling feeling, sore boobs etc. I have had these for negative cycles so I try not to obsess about them. (haha! That’s a joke) I did have a sharp pain or two in my uterus one night that woke me but that could have been anything. The past day or two I haven’t felt much. So now the question is when to test. Tomorrow at 5dp5dt is when I got a positive with Coen and it is also our 4 year anniversary. I don’t know if I should skip or test and know it is still early. When you are a POAS addict it is really hard to wait…..
FET #1 for Baby #2
I had my first lining check last Wednesday but it was a no go. My lining was only 6.3mm and at best it needs to be at least 8 before they schedule the transfer. I was bumped up from 2mg Estrace twice a day to 2mg three times a day. I had a second lining check on Monday and my lining was 8.6 but due to scheduling they had me come in one more time this past Wednesday. My lining at that point was 8.8mm. We started PIO shots Wednesday night and we have transfer this Monday at 10:30am! I am excited/nervous for the transfer. It has been over two years since our last transfer for Coen. I don’t want to feel the heartache of a failed cycle but I also know that it took a lot last time. I am not expecting it to work the first time or the second. I am going into it with the knowledge that it worked once before and there is no reason it could not happen again. We are also only transferring one blast which might decrease our chances a bit.
FET #4 Update
I didn’t think I would be writing this but I have been cleared to start a frozen embryo cycle! I honestly thought we may not even get the chance to try for #2. Why is it we always think the worst case scenario? It looks like all is good with my liver from a biopsy point. My gastro will be monitoring my liver levels during the cycle just in case. I am also waiting to hear on the genetic test for Celiac disease. I started Estrace Friday night and return for an ultrasound on March 3rd. Depending on my lining, we will most likely be transferring the week of March 8th with a beta right before our 4th anniversary.
The hubby and I don’t celebrate Valentine’ Day but we did spend the night away for a wedding 2 hours north. It was only the second time we have left Coen overnight but it was good to get away especially after the biopsy and stress I had been dealing with. I did indulge in a few cocktails and it was probably the first time I have had over two drinks in about two years. It would have been relaxing if we didn’t hit a storm both ways there and back. A little pic from the day.
FET # 4 and TTC #2 Update
Happy First week of October! I can’t believe in less than 2 weeks my baby boy will be 1! Picture is from one of our many outtakes of Coen for his birthday invites!
It has been awhile since I have given any update besides Coen’s monthly ones but……a few weeks ago we had our first appointment for trying for baby #2! We have 3 frozen embryos so it makes sense to go that we use those first. The RE said we have two day 5 and one day 6 embryos waiting for us. I think it would be crazy to think of Coen having a brother or sister from the same IVF cycle. I am excited and scared. What if it doesn’t work a second time? Are we ready? How many tries do I try this before giving up? I still have not gotten my period so I think it may not show until I have completely weaned. Our next steps….wean Coen….period shows, blood work and ultrasound and then once we are cleared we will start FET #4. She mentioned we could start as early as January! It was a January cycle that I got Coen but I am not expecting this to work the first time after what we went through. We also have made the decision to only transfer one at a time. In the past, we have done both one and two. We just don’t want to risk twins but also know it could take that much longer.
I have a hefty stash of frozen milk so I decided to start weaning Coen at 11 months. I am not sure how far it will get us but it will definitely bring us until after his first birthday. Weaning is bittersweet and I never thought I would be this emotional about it. To be honest, I never thought I would make it this far or that it would be this hard hard to stop. I sometimes wonder if I would be weaning if we weren’t planning on trying for another one. I am ready to have my body completely back to me but I am going to miss it. I hope he still wants to cuddle or still needs me as much as he does now. I am sure our last time will bring tears and I am not sure I am quite ready for that yet. Coen is down to 4 feedings a day. Two bottles at daycare and I nurse him in the morning and at bedtime. Over the past few weeks I have dropped the daytime feedings. I was pumping 5 times a day while I was away. Last Friday I pumped for the last time at work. I will not miss it at all. I am holding strong at just nursing in the morning and at night. I am not sure I am ready to drop these yet. Weaning is far more emotional than I ever thought it would be but I also have this longing to give Coen a little brother or sister. Again, this is all just a reminder of how we don’t have the luxury to just blink our eyes and be pregnant. But it is what it is and I am willing to go through it all again because it was so worth it.