Labor Day ~ 5dp5dt

Happy Labor Day!  It has been a good weekend but flew by like most long weekends!  Today we went up to my sister in law’s lake house.  It is beautiful up there but my heart feels heavy so I probably did not enjoy it as much as I should have.

It was another emotional day….I think the meds, stress and fear of failure are all finally getting to me.  Before we left the house I had a breakdown, snapped at my mom when she called and had no desire to be around people.  I sucked it up and felt better once we got up there.

Duncan loooooves swimming and playing ball so he was pooped out by the time we were ready to leave.

My mother had text me while I was up there saying sorry she got me upset.  Funny it was completely my fault but she knows I am stressed to the max.  I had text her back apologizing and that I was afraid of another failed cycle and living my life childless.  When I got home I saw she had text me back saying “Kim I wish I could rock you in my arms and make you feel better. You will some day be a mother.  I am sure”   Of course this released more water works.  But it is true.  I can’t give up this easily.  Even if this one fails and we need to take some time off we will not give up.  I will be a mother someday, somehow.