I did test on our anniversary at 5dp5dpt and much to my surprise and excitement I saw a very faint line!!! Beta is tomorrow and tests have been getting darker. I am in shock! Tests are from Monday and Tuesday. Eeek
Wish I could come on here and say that I have good news…..unfortunately I don’t. Pretty sure #4 is a bust. After those weird twinges and all my cramps I woke up Tuesday with the worst headache and fever like symptoms. I did take test to see a very, very faint line. I felt pregnant and then something changed. I no longer felt pregnant. My body which had been having cramps, twinges, weird feelings in my uterus just felt nothing. Wednesday I took another test and it was negative. Today negative. Ever since then I am feeling back to normal. Possible Chemical? Maybe. I took yesterday off because I felt sick. I was nauseous, had a fever, sore throat and of course seeing the negative put me over the edge. I could not go in. Today I come in and one of my coworkers asks how I am feeling. I tell her I have had a fever and have not felt good all week. Some asshole over hears us and barks in “Pregnant? Haha” Seriously? As for what is next who knows? FET #3? A fresh IVF with PGP? More Testing? Donor sperm? Adoption? Beta is tomorrow and typically if our Dr is there she will call with the news. I hope she can suggest some next steps. Sigh. Heartbroken.
I tested again this morning but it was negative. Beta will be in the morning. I am pretty much sure it will be negative but always have hope that I will get a nice surprise. My husband is gone for the weekend for a bachelor party and I know he felt bad leaving but I really don’t mind. I am just going to focus on me this weekend. Do some reading, cleaning, cooking and relaxing. All things that can help me de-stress. It will just be me and the pooch! I am going to continue to think of all the positives in my life. I will grieve and then move on. I called and made an appointment with the Dr for Wednesday. I am interested to see what she has to say and what kind of tests we may do.