She’s here! Well she will be 4 weeks tomorrow so this post is a little late but she has been keeping us busy. Alana arrived at 1:34pm on December 10th and was just a tad bigger than her brother at 7lb 9oz and 19.5 inches. She is absolutely perfect and looks so much like Coen as a newborn.
I did hope to have a VBAC but things did not go my way. This pregnancy was a lot longer than Coen’s and at 41 weeks and 1 day it was decided that a C section would be my best option. Although I was devastated with the news, things were different with this section. I knew what to expect and it wasn’t at nearly midnight when I was completely exhausted. I was the first one to hold her and she was placed on my chest as soon as she was pulled out and she remained there while I was “put” back together. That experience made it feel less like an operation and more like a childbirth. The other unique thing was Coen was born 8 days early on 10/12 and Alana was 8 days late born on 12/10 so it just feels like it was meant to be.
I plan on posting her monthly updates as well as my postpartum ones just like I did for Coen.
I had blood work early this morning. My RE called me this afternoon to let me know I was pregnant and that if things keep progressing the way they are Coen will have a sibling soon. My beta level level was 228! I go back on Saturday for another blood draw and hopefully my numbers are doubled. I forgot how nice it is to find out early but also how stressful it can be to worry about if everything is alright and counting down the days until you’re out of that danger zone. FRERs are still getting darker. Here are today’s and yesterday’s tests.
There must be something with infertility that always has us waiting. I have weaned Coen well over a month ago now and still no period. I have taken a week of Provera and waited two weeks after….nothing. Now I am on Estrace for 10 days and then Provera and will wait some more. Once it starts I can get all the tests done so we can submit to insurance and then start a FET cycle. I forgot how much I hate waiting. Luckily, I have a great little distraction that keeps me going every day.
I have been quite frustrated the way the scale has been going up since weaning. My body is doing what it wants despite me watching what I eat, exercising and taking into account that I don’t need the extra calories. Now to add in the hormones I am bloated, uncomfortable, pants are getting tighter and I am starting to not sleep well. Oh the joys of estrogen…..
On a positive note, I did find a picture of one year ago after having Coen and compared it to a picture from this weekend. I have made a lot of progress over the year. I also have started to realize that despite weaning my body is not mine again. It will all be worth it though.
Life is busy as expected with a 13 month old. Some things have gotten easier and some have gotten more difficult. I think the biggest improvement is his bedtime routine has gotten better and he is sleeping all the way through the night. We give a sippy cup of milk and a little snack at 7 pm, read at 7:20 and he goes down without a peep. There are also no 5 am wake ups every morning. He sleeps most days until 6:30am. Pretty sure he was playing me and if I just did a little sleep training I could have gotten this months ago.
The little guy has been sick the past few weeks with a cold and fever. I took off last Monday when he was feeling the worst and his fever was 101. Luckily I think he is finally getting better but he just has that lingering cough. Poor guy. He got sick last year but it was nothing like this. There was nothing I could do to help and all he wanted was to cry and give hugs.
I am looking forward to a 5 day weekend and some yummy food for Thanksgiving! We will be hosting Thanksgiving but it will be small. Just the hubby, Coen, my sister, father and me which means lots of turkey leftovers! We are doing family pictures on Friday and I am excited to see how they come out. If they are good we will be using one of them for Christmas Cards. We already got pics with Santa this weekend. They didn’t come out so great because Coen was just about to break out crying. I think the stranger fear is in full effect.
Happy First week of October! I can’t believe in less than 2 weeks my baby boy will be 1! Picture is from one of our many outtakes of Coen for his birthday invites!
It has been awhile since I have given any update besides Coen’s monthly ones but……a few weeks ago we had our first appointment for trying for baby #2! We have 3 frozen embryos so it makes sense to go that we use those first. The RE said we have two day 5 and one day 6 embryos waiting for us. I think it would be crazy to think of Coen having a brother or sister from the same IVF cycle. I am excited and scared. What if it doesn’t work a second time? Are we ready? How many tries do I try this before giving up? I still have not gotten my period so I think it may not show until I have completely weaned. Our next steps….wean Coen….period shows, blood work and ultrasound and then once we are cleared we will start FET #4. She mentioned we could start as early as January! It was a January cycle that I got Coen but I am not expecting this to work the first time after what we went through. We also have made the decision to only transfer one at a time. In the past, we have done both one and two. We just don’t want to risk twins but also know it could take that much longer.
I have a hefty stash of frozen milk so I decided to start weaning Coen at 11 months. I am not sure how far it will get us but it will definitely bring us until after his first birthday. Weaning is bittersweet and I never thought I would be this emotional about it. To be honest, I never thought I would make it this far or that it would be this hard hard to stop. I sometimes wonder if I would be weaning if we weren’t planning on trying for another one. I am ready to have my body completely back to me but I am going to miss it. I hope he still wants to cuddle or still needs me as much as he does now. I am sure our last time will bring tears and I am not sure I am quite ready for that yet. Coen is down to 4 feedings a day. Two bottles at daycare and I nurse him in the morning and at bedtime. Over the past few weeks I have dropped the daytime feedings. I was pumping 5 times a day while I was away. Last Friday I pumped for the last time at work. I will not miss it at all. I am holding strong at just nursing in the morning and at night. I am not sure I am ready to drop these yet. Weaning is far more emotional than I ever thought it would be but I also have this longing to give Coen a little brother or sister. Again, this is all just a reminder of how we don’t have the luxury to just blink our eyes and be pregnant. But it is what it is and I am willing to go through it all again because it was so worth it.