It’s Official……Due on My Birthday!

Tuesday was a great day.  We had our NT Screening Ultrasound and it was our first meeting with the OB.  The place I am going seems to be a bit unorganized, as far as the receptionist communicating to Dr.’s and nurses, but all the people there are really nice and I especially love the midwife I met last week.  The ultrasound went well.  She was having a hard time getting measurements because the little one was napping.  She kept poking at him/her and finally he/she woke up.  The baby started bouncing around and she could finally get the measurements which was all under the 2.5mm that they like to see.  It was a relief and it was great to see the baby again.  This was the first time the hubby saw the baby all active.  Once we waited a good 30 minutes to see the OB she came in, asked some questions, did some measurements and tried the doppler and within seconds we heard the baby’s heartbeat!  She said at this point the miscarriage risk is so low that we should feel confident to tell the world!  I think hearing that made us both feel like wow this could really be it.  We have decided to tell the rest of our family either this weekend or next.  They finally got my original ultrasounds back and notes from the fertility clinic which put my official due date on my birthday October 20th! I know that the chance that the baby will be born on the actual due date is so low but what an amazing birthday present I am getting.  I love the fall and October.  I think it is the perfect time for our little one to be born.

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MIA ~ 10 weeks

I have been MIA lately.  I just feel like I have been holding my breath since I had the positive test.  Finally, I feel like I am getting closer and closer to the safe zone!  I will be 11 weeks tomorrow (going by transfer day).  My due date is still up in the air.  The OB office still haven’t gotten my ultrasounds from the clinic.  They said once they get them they will use the 8 week one to date the pregnancy.  It will probably be the day of my birthday or a few days before.  Best birthday gift ever!  I had my first appointment at the OB’s office.  I saw the midwife and I am so happy with her.  We had a really good connection.  After spending a year with my RE,  I was sad to go.  I had the normal exam, pap etc.  She said she would try the doppler to see if we could hear a heartbeat.  Of course I was all for this but after 3-4 minutes and not hearing anything I started freaking out.  My midwife could tell I was anxious and said she was going to go grab the portable ultrasound machine.  She said I would see that baby some way or another.  She brought it in and found the little one quickly.  We saw the beautiful heart beating and he/she was jumping around in there.  It was such a relief.  Since then I feel like this finally may be it….our take home baby.  Next week is the NT Scan and I will make sure to post the u/s pics after.  Soon enough I will have to start posting bump pictures as well.  I have lost a lot of muscle from not lifting but my weight is probably still the same.  So I may have gained a pound or two.

I have been struggling with food still.  I feel great when I eat clean but lately I have been giving in to the cravings, having lots of food with gluten and then find myself sick for days after.  I decided I just need to accept I can’t tolerate that food and I need to do what is best for the baby.  Having a treat here or there is fine it’s the overindulging that gets to me! I have been walking or occasionally doing the elliptical.  I do not want to take any risks and I am looking forward to the second trimester when I can really get back to my normal (modified) routine.   I have been doing this workout from Ashley’s blog.  It is perfect because I can adjust the incline accordingly depending how I am feeling.

A trip to the ER and Ultrasounds

It has been 2 weeks since my last post.  I have been a ball of anxiety and fear and just couldn’t focus to put my thoughts down and write a post.  It was a crazy stressful few weeks but things seem to be getting a little calmer now.  I hope it only gets easier or less eventful from here.  Last Saturday after days of spotting and then increasing cramping my clinic finally told me to go to the ER.  I was so sure it was the end.  I was a mess and thought it was all over.  Thankfully they got me in fairly quickly and were very kind.  The hubby was working but ended up meeting me right before they wheeled me in to get the ultrasound.  It was perfect timing and I was so excited he could be there for our first ultrasound…good or bad.   Luckily it was good….we saw one beautiful baby and heartbeat.  I was almost 6 weeks.  It made me feel better to see the baby and heartbeat but my release notes of “threatened abortion” didn’t make me feel entirely better.

I got a call from the clinic on Monday checking in on me.  My Dr was out the week it happened which explained the lack of response when I was complaining about the spotting.  They set me up with an early ultrasound on Wednesday.  I was about 6 weeks 3 days and measured about 6 weeks and day.  I seem to be measuring a few days behind still which they don’t seemed too concerned about.  They found a hematoma (SCH) and she mentioned something about the placenta may have pulled away a little which caused the spotting.  To be honest, I was so stressed that nothing she said really stuck.  We did see a heartbeat which measured 115bpm.  I was a little concerned about it being low but for 6 weeks she didn’t seem to think it was bad.  I don’t think there will ever be a point I don’t find a reason to worry.  I have not been put on bed rest and have not really been told to restrict activity.  The spotting and cramping seem to be gone which have given me some comfort.  But I know we are not out of the water and I am of course still worried about a possible loss.  We will be going back in a week from tomorrow for another ultrasound and then possibly be released to the OB.  Here’s the pic of our little one!

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Spotting Scare

I had a spotting scare yesterday. As soon as I noticed it I called the clinic and left a message.  I also had mild cramping.  All I could think about was that I was losing the baby.  I didn’t get a call back for about an hour and she just told me to take it easy, no heavy lifting and she would leave a note for the Dr.  I finally started to relax when the spotting went away but still feeling mildly crampy.  I know spotting can be normal in early pregnancy but it doesn’t make it any less stressful.  I will be going in for beta #3 tomorrow and I am hoping my number looks good.  At that point they will give me a date for an ultrasound.

Yesterday and today I woke up to more snow!

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After the spotting scare, I hit the couch and barely moved from it and then hubby came home with these!

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For dinner we had scallops, lamb, asparagus and butternut squash all made by my love.  I took a picture of his plate. The piece of lamb I had was well done and to be honest grossed me out.  I must be getting some food aversions because even thinking about the smell and taste of lamb  is making me sick to my stomach.  Ewww even this picture is making me nauseous.  The scallops were amazing though.  Sat Night Dinner

And this morning I woke up and made myself oatmeal pancakes with a little bit of Sunbutter and syrup.  They were so good.  The only problem when I make oatmeal pancakes over regular oatmeal is I am starving 2 minutes later. It’s kind of like Chinese food.  I wanted to start my morning with something on the healthy side.  The past few weeks I have been overindulging in lots of bad food.  Going back to being good today!

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Snowflakes and almost the weekend….

Happy Valentines Day!!!!  We don’t really celebrate the day so Doug will be going to hockey tonight and I will be doing homework and hitting bed early.  Tomorrow I will officially 5 weeks.  So far I am feeling pretty good.  I am tired but still chugging along. I went in for my second beta on Monday which was 428!  So the doubling time was 42ish hours and I think they like to see it at least between 48-72.  I am finally getting more comfortable with this pregnancy and my constant fear of it being taken away has decreased a little after the second beta. I go back in again next Monday for my last beta and then they will book an ultrasound.    My betas are on the higher end but not extremely high which would almost guarantee me twins.  It could go either way at this point.  I am just hoping for one strong little one in there. My RE was concerned with my size and having twins.  I KNOW it is possible but I would like the least risk pregnancy I could get.  That being said I will be happy either way.  Just ready to find out!

I can’t believe the weekend is almost here!  Last weekend was our celebratory weekend and we also had snow, snow and more snow.

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There was so much snow when I woke up Saturday morning I literally had to toss Duncan outside because the snow was over his head!  He wasn’t so helpful while I shoveled the back deck.

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Now this was not a fun task but the hubby did most of the front because the snow blower died so I felt like I should help out.  It was light snow so it was more time consuming than anything.  Luckily a neighbor let him borrow their snow blower the next day so he could do the other half.  Isn’t that what always happens? The snow blower dies on the day of a blizzard.

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10dp5dt and Wedding Cake

FET #3 Update

Last March was our first wedding anniversary and we somehow forgot to have a slice of our wedding cake.  We went on a cruise to celebrate and it was right before we had started our first IVF.  Once we realized  we forgot it just seemed silly to have any.  Since we were just about to have our first IVF cycle I had said when I found out I was pregnant we would celebrate by having our wedding cake.  We didn’t expect that it would take long.  Maybe just one or two cycles.  That was almost a year ago.   This cake has been through a lot.  There is not much left of it because our freezer went after a storm last year and stinky fish melted onto the bottom half of the cake.  We salvaged what we could. 5 IVF cycles and 23 months later I am happy to say that  we will be having a slice of that cake today.  I got the call yesterday from my Dr. that I am officially pregnant!  My beta was 134 and she seemed extremely happy with this.  I will be going from beta #2 on Monday and if those numbers are good I will go back in a week from then for beta #3.  If everything looks good first ultrasound will be at 6.5 weeks.

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FET #3 Update

After seeing that second beautiful line Monday I went to bed super early but woke throughout the night with a fear.  Fear that it would be the same as last time and I would test and see only one line.  Every night I have tossed and turned still feeling so worried that the line wouldn’t be darker.  After dealing with IF you can’t just enjoy seeing that second line like other women.  There is a constant fear that what you worked so hard to get will be taken away from you.  I feel as one weight lifted another was replaced.  Don’t get me wrong I am beyond overjoyed.  I am the happiest I have been in years!

I got my official “pregnant” today on a digital!  It made me feel like this could be it!  My estimated due date is October 18th which is two days before my birthday.  This will be the best gift I have ever gotten.  Beta was supposed to be Saturday but with the huge storm coming I was able to call it and bump it up for tomorrow!!!!  I am very excited to hear what the number is and to finally hear them call and tell me I am pregnant!  Do I have enough exclamation points in this post? Nooooo!!!!!!

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