Countdown is On….1dp5dt

FET #3 Update

Yesterday was transfer day and it was probably the best transfer I have had yet!   They were late as usual in the clinic and they had us come in and wait in the area where the retrieval patients were.  I heard the nurse talking to the only retrieval patient of the day saying it was a busy day with all the transfers and the women says I hope all those transfers end up with great results to start the week off right.  I thought it was such a selfless comment.  How many woman can just come out of retrieval and be wishing a bunch of other women will get pregnant?

I really was the perfect transfer.  I have a retroverted uterus so they usually have trouble getting the catheter just right.  This time it took one try and the 2 blasts were transferred.   He said we hit the “jackpot” with the two expanding blasts.  But it isn’t the first time he has said this but I don’t care because I have hope that this will be the one.  I have been a couch potato yesterday and today and will try to keep it a low key, easy weekend.  I feel very relaxed this time.  Maybe it is because I have been through this so many times, maybe I know it will work or maybe I just haven’t gotten to my typical breakdown time of 4-5dp5dt.  Only time will tell.  Beta is a week from Saturday and I just hope I get some sign of implantation like the flutters I got last time. I really, really hope this is it!

FET 3 Embryos

Transfer Day Confirmed….next Wednesday!

FET #3 Update

I had the lining check yesterday and my lining was 8.2 which was good enough to start me on the progesterone.  I started last night and this morning I feel like I got hit by a Mack truck I am so tired.   I have been doing alright on the Estrace.  There have been no late night searching for whoopie pies so that is a good thing.  I have just been extremely tired and have had on and off headaches.  Of course feeling like I have PMS x 100 is not exactly fun but I have made it through before I can make it through again.  Just hoping the hubby and the dog can deal with my crankiness for a few more weeks or hopefully months.  I had Monday off for the holiday but for some reason this week felt long but also flew by at the same time.  Does that even make sense?

I keep going back and forth whether I have hope for this cycle or not.  One second I feel like this could be finally it and then the other times I feel like that we have done it four times before so why would this one result in a different outcome?   I do keep thinking back of that one very light positive I had…..and then I second guess myself thinking maybe it was just an evap line or something.  I have lot’s of things coming up in a few months which is why it would be perfect for this one to work.  We wouldn’t have to worry about another fresh IVF and dishing out 5K for PGD testing.  We have a wedding in April in Nashville and my brother’s wedding in Vegas in May.  We are also considering putting our house on the market all while going through IVF, taking a class and trying to stay sane!  Just been feeling a lot of weight on my shoulders.

The good news is transfer is this Wednesday! I can’t believe it is finally here.  I will be taking off Wednesday and Thursday to just sit on my butt and let the little one(s) snuggle in.  I am excited and scared all at the same time.  Now I just need this weekend to fly by and Wednesday to be here!

 

 

 

 

Another work week over….

FET #3 Update

Friday is my lining check.  Things feel like they are happening so quickly.  This past week flew because I have been straight out at work on a project.  I have still been getting get my workouts in and taking at least one day off a week to rest.  I will probably cut out lifting at the end of this week and just stick to walking at a moderate pace.  This is the part that always kills me.  I LOVE working out and feel amazing when I do.  When I have to cut it out completely for 2-3 weeks I start feeling awful.  Of course a baby is way more important but the fact is this is round #5.  At this point we are close to the end of our IVF journey and I have already done this four times before with nothing to show for it.  So when you get nothing out of IVF except some tears and maybe a little more dignity taken away it’s hard for me to say it’s worth it to get nothing.

I have been on Estrace for a week now and am just at the point to start feeling the side effects.  Cranky, depressed, bloated and insomnia oh my. I have been eating very healthy and besides the drugs my body feels the best I have felt in a long time.  I just hope the stress doesn’t catch up to me and throw me off.  It has been much easier now that the hubby has been eating good in the New Year.  I am pretty sure he gained some IVF weight as well.

Last Weekend Eats

It has been awhile since I posted and another weekend has almost gone by but here is some tasty eats from last weekend.  Last Sunday we had Grass Fed Beef Tenderloin that was marinated in Terriyaki Marinade and Zucchini Sticks!  Yum!  These pics don’t look so appetizing but dinner was really good.

Zucchini Sticks

Next time I need a dipping sauce for the zucchini….maybe marinara or healthy ranch dressing?  Tonight we will be trying Eggplant Fries. Hmmm…..sounds interesting and I bet they will be really good.

Grass Fed Tenderlon

 

Offically Started FET #3…..

Another snowy day!  We have not had too many of these this winter so I don’t mind it.  Duncan loves when I make him pose outside in the snow. You can just tell by his facial expression. Ha!

Duncan in the Snow

I did my good deed and attempted to drive into work.  After about 45 minutes of driving I was only 15 minutes from my house.  At that point I said “this is crazy” and turned around and I am working from home today.

Snowy on the road

This is after I turned around.  There was only light traffic heading home instead of that stop and go.  But I love the way the trees look after snowfall.

FET #3 Update

Friday came around and I had still not heard anything back from the clinic.  I gave them a call because I was on my second pack of birth control and needed refills to make it though the weekend.  I left them a message and maybe 5 minutes later I get a call back saying we heard your voice mail and it looks like insurance is approved.  Argh.  Not sure why they didn’t call me sooner.  So annoying but anyway YAY insurance was approved.  So my first baseline ultrasound and blood work was Monday and I started estrace that night.  I go back to the clinic for a lining check next Friday the 25th.  I HOPE my lining is good and we should be transferring January 31st!  That’s only 2 weeks from tomorrow!  Yes, I have a million exclamation points because I am that excited.  This off cycle was soooo long.  If this one works come October I will be getting one hell of a birthday present!  I so am hoping this one is it.  We both finished our Z-packs and I will be on another antibiotic before transfer so I am praying this does the trick and I end up pregnant.

A Possible Breakthrough?!?!?

FET #3 Update

Insurance is still pending to start the FET cycle.  Hurry up already.  Sigh.  Good news is I did get a call from the Dr yesterday with the results from the hysteroscopy.  She says I tested positive for Chronic Endometritis and this could be “part of the answer.”  It is basically inflammation and infection of the endometrium (uterine lining).   It is not the same as endometriosis.  This can cause a hostile environment for a little embie to implant.  They put me and the hubby on Z-paks which we started yesterday.  I am excited that this could be the reason for the past 4 failed cycles but I am also being cautious that there is something else that could be the problem.

Not much else going on here.  Back in school and still working my butt off trying to lose that extra holiday poundage.  Here is another 30 minute interval incline walking treadmill workout I did yesterday after weights. I have been trying to stick to all the walking ones because with IVF I feel like running is “off limits.”  I do miss it though.  I got this workout off Pinterest which I am still obsessed with! I love how I can put all the recipes I want to try in one place. So cool.  Happy Wednesday!

 

The Weekend Flew…

I had a really good weekend but it flew by.  It is my mother’s birthday on Thursday so I met up with her over my sister’s place.  My sister gave us both a haircut and then we lounged around for a bit till we finally got motivated to go get a mani/pedi.  Don’t get me wrong I am far from a girly girl.  Getting my hair done and a pedicure are far from routine for me.  Even having my sister being a hairdresser, I probably get my hair cut less than most.  My sister is just the opposite of me.  She is all into that kind of stuff.  Well  I wanted to spend time together rather then just meet up for dinner somewhere.  As I get older, I have realized how quickly life goes and I really cherish the time that I spend with my mom and sister.  As my mom got a manicure she had a permanent smile.  It was probably one of the best gifts we could give her: time together.

The great weekend lead to a not so great Monday.  I could not fall asleep last night for the life of me.  12:30 rolled around and I was still up.  When the alarm went off at 5:30 it was a struggle to move.  Things just started going wrong: Leaving the house I fell down the stairs on my bum and had to run back inside and change because my pants were soaked, my lunch leaked all over the bag it was in, I forgot to pack t-shirts in my gym back and had to buy some at the company store on lunch and an early meeting turned ugly when I was put on the spot and just couldn’t think from lack of sleep.

I am not sure why I did not sleep well but last night the anxiety started.  I think it is a mix of pre-FET jitters and fear of another failed cycle, worry about transfer falling on days I NEED to be at work and starting a new class.  I think another thing that is bothering me is that this is the month I would be giving birth if IVF #1 had worked.  I feel a sense of loss.

I at least went to the gym and had a great workout.  I did some weight lifting circuits and then 30 minutes of cardio.  I did a walking treadmill workout but added some running at the end.

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Hysteroscopy = Done

FET #3 Update

Well, I made it through the hysteroscopy.  Just feeling really tired today but I think that is partly because I couldn’t sleep last night and from the anesthesia.  I have definitely been more anxious this past month and I am not sure if it is because of the holidays or because I am nervous for the next FET.   Maybe a combination of both?  Either way it is causing a disruption in sleep.  No Cool.  My Dr did come over to me while I was half out of it to let me know what she did.  Of course I was out of it and all I remember was asking if what she “fixed” could be why we have not gotten pregnant yet.  I asked the hubby what she said to him and she smoothed out my uterus or something like that and most likely it would not have caused all the failed cycles.  I will get more info during the post-op appointment in a few weeks.  The good news is while we were in the waiting room she had us sign all our FET paperwork which she will be submitting today.  So once that goes through then I will stop the birth control pills, wait for my friend to arrive, go in for baseline u/s and blood work then start the Estrace.  Things are going to start moving along.  I am guesstimating that transfer will be at the end of January or beginning of February.  Not too shabby.  Just a month away.

I took yesterday off from working out obviously but Wednesday I did a new 45 minute Treadmill workout.  I have been on pinterest like crazy trying to find some good workouts.  Here is the one I did on Wednesday:

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I added an extra ten minute walk on the end.  It was a good workout for getting back into it after the holidays.  I ended up burning about 400ish calories so that’s always a good thing.  I have been lifting A LOT and cut down on cardio the past few months.  I am going to switch it up and increase cardio and decrease lifting to help lose some of this holiday weight.

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