A Year to remember…..2013

A sad end to last year brings a happy end to this year.  Few words can describe what a great year this was……..

FET #3 (IVF #5) = First Positive


Healthy heartbeat and baby….


4 Weeks pregnant


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35 Weeks….


Last week of pregnancy (38 weeks)…….


Our boy arrives….


Love at first sight….


First Pics…..


One Month Old…

DSC_0059Two Months Old…


Christmas Card Cameo….

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Coen’s First Christmas…..


Hoping 2014 brings just as much joy to us and to all.  Happy New Year!!!

Spotting Scare

I had a spotting scare yesterday. As soon as I noticed it I called the clinic and left a message.  I also had mild cramping.  All I could think about was that I was losing the baby.  I didn’t get a call back for about an hour and she just told me to take it easy, no heavy lifting and she would leave a note for the Dr.  I finally started to relax when the spotting went away but still feeling mildly crampy.  I know spotting can be normal in early pregnancy but it doesn’t make it any less stressful.  I will be going in for beta #3 tomorrow and I am hoping my number looks good.  At that point they will give me a date for an ultrasound.

Yesterday and today I woke up to more snow!

More Snow

After the spotting scare, I hit the couch and barely moved from it and then hubby came home with these!


For dinner we had scallops, lamb, asparagus and butternut squash all made by my love.  I took a picture of his plate. The piece of lamb I had was well done and to be honest grossed me out.  I must be getting some food aversions because even thinking about the smell and taste of lamb  is making me sick to my stomach.  Ewww even this picture is making me nauseous.  The scallops were amazing though.  Sat Night Dinner

And this morning I woke up and made myself oatmeal pancakes with a little bit of Sunbutter and syrup.  They were so good.  The only problem when I make oatmeal pancakes over regular oatmeal is I am starving 2 minutes later. It’s kind of like Chinese food.  I wanted to start my morning with something on the healthy side.  The past few weeks I have been overindulging in lots of bad food.  Going back to being good today!

Pancakes 2

Snowflakes and almost the weekend….

Happy Valentines Day!!!!  We don’t really celebrate the day so Doug will be going to hockey tonight and I will be doing homework and hitting bed early.  Tomorrow I will officially 5 weeks.  So far I am feeling pretty good.  I am tired but still chugging along. I went in for my second beta on Monday which was 428!  So the doubling time was 42ish hours and I think they like to see it at least between 48-72.  I am finally getting more comfortable with this pregnancy and my constant fear of it being taken away has decreased a little after the second beta. I go back in again next Monday for my last beta and then they will book an ultrasound.    My betas are on the higher end but not extremely high which would almost guarantee me twins.  It could go either way at this point.  I am just hoping for one strong little one in there. My RE was concerned with my size and having twins.  I KNOW it is possible but I would like the least risk pregnancy I could get.  That being said I will be happy either way.  Just ready to find out!

I can’t believe the weekend is almost here!  Last weekend was our celebratory weekend and we also had snow, snow and more snow.


There was so much snow when I woke up Saturday morning I literally had to toss Duncan outside because the snow was over his head!  He wasn’t so helpful while I shoveled the back deck.


Now this was not a fun task but the hubby did most of the front because the snow blower died so I felt like I should help out.  It was light snow so it was more time consuming than anything.  Luckily a neighbor let him borrow their snow blower the next day so he could do the other half.  Isn’t that what always happens? The snow blower dies on the day of a blizzard.


10dp5dt and Wedding Cake

FET #3 Update

Last March was our first wedding anniversary and we somehow forgot to have a slice of our wedding cake.  We went on a cruise to celebrate and it was right before we had started our first IVF.  Once we realized  we forgot it just seemed silly to have any.  Since we were just about to have our first IVF cycle I had said when I found out I was pregnant we would celebrate by having our wedding cake.  We didn’t expect that it would take long.  Maybe just one or two cycles.  That was almost a year ago.   This cake has been through a lot.  There is not much left of it because our freezer went after a storm last year and stinky fish melted onto the bottom half of the cake.  We salvaged what we could. 5 IVF cycles and 23 months later I am happy to say that  we will be having a slice of that cake today.  I got the call yesterday from my Dr. that I am officially pregnant!  My beta was 134 and she seemed extremely happy with this.  I will be going from beta #2 on Monday and if those numbers are good I will go back in a week from then for beta #3.  If everything looks good first ultrasound will be at 6.5 weeks.

wedding cake


FET #3 Update

After seeing that second beautiful line Monday I went to bed super early but woke throughout the night with a fear.  Fear that it would be the same as last time and I would test and see only one line.  Every night I have tossed and turned still feeling so worried that the line wouldn’t be darker.  After dealing with IF you can’t just enjoy seeing that second line like other women.  There is a constant fear that what you worked so hard to get will be taken away from you.  I feel as one weight lifted another was replaced.  Don’t get me wrong I am beyond overjoyed.  I am the happiest I have been in years!

I got my official “pregnant” today on a digital!  It made me feel like this could be it!  My estimated due date is October 18th which is two days before my birthday.  This will be the best gift I have ever gotten.  Beta was supposed to be Saturday but with the huge storm coming I was able to call it and bump it up for tomorrow!!!!  I am very excited to hear what the number is and to finally hear them call and tell me I am pregnant!  Do I have enough exclamation points in this post? Nooooo!!!!!!

first bfp digi


5dp5dt ~ When you least expect it….

FET #3 Update

Yesterday was miserable I cried on the way to the grocery store, held it back in the store as we passed by families, infants and the baby food section but broke down into huge sobs as soon as we left.  I told myself we would never have what they have.  I knew this cycle failed.  I made the hubby discuss what we would do next….adoption or another cycle.  I started mentally figuring out finances and how we could not attend one of the weddings we were invited to.  I was so sure it failed I had 2 glasses of wine.  You can imagine my disbelief this morning.  I just wanted to test knowing it was real early to get it out of my system.  I figured if it was BFN then I would wait till Thursday to test again.   The first test was FMU and I thought I was imagining I saw a line.  There was no denying it when I took another test.  It is light but it is there.  I can’t believe it…..I AM PREGNANT!


2 first BFPs



4dp5dt ~ Not feeling it

FET #3 Update

The lack of symptoms has me scared to death.  Last cycle with the chemical I had these twinges and flutters at 4-5dp5dt and I knew I was pregnant but this time feels like all the other failed cycles.  My body just feels quiet.  I really had hope this time with the diagnosis of endometritis and the antibiotic regiment I was put on.  I KNOW it is still early and I have not given up hope entirely but I am just feeling out already.  I have had no symptoms, no cramps, no pokes or twinges.  I only had  a minor backache yesterday but that was just from tweaking it some how and I am no longer feeling that.  I hope I am wrong. I hope I get to be one of these women that said they had no symptoms during the TWW but this feels all to familiar.  I just don’t know how I am going to get through the next week feeling like this.  Now I am second guessing what we will do next.  Should we go straight to adoption and save ourselves some heartache of more failed cycles?  Our next step was to do PGD testing of the embryos but that is still 2 more cycles.  One a fresh IVF with a freeze all after testing and then a FET with the “normal” embryos.  So that FET probably wouldn’t even be till the summer.  I haven’t tested and to be honest I don’t even know if I want to.  Seeing a BFN everyday is extremely painful.  Maybe I should just wait till Friday or Saturday and test right before the beta.  It is just miserable sitting at work trying to not think about that wretched negative HPT that you took earlier that morning. Sigh.