Transfer went so smoothly on Monday. We transferred one Grade A blast. In the past with my retroverted cervix it has been painful and the Dr always struggles with getting the placement right. The only time that it went this smoothly was when it actually worked…….but think pregnancy just changed things a bit and made it a little easier. I am not stupid. I have been in this position too many times. I can’t compare this time to any other one. I have cycles I was positive I was pregnant that I wasn’t and the one that worked that felt like other failed cycles. I took the day of transfer off but decided to go back to work the day after. I kind of wish I didn’t because that day ended up to be quite stressful. My boss gave her notice which leaves me with one new guy that has been there a month and one other that was leaving two days after my boss and one person who hasn’t started yet. The good thing is it will be an opportunity for me to grow before they decide what to do with the position. I also have not been following orders as far as not lifting heavy items…Coen is almost 30lbs so there really is nothing I can do!
As far as symptoms, I have felt the normal progesterone ones…..on and off cramps, backache and random twinge or pulling feeling, sore boobs etc. I have had these for negative cycles so I try not to obsess about them. (haha! That’s a joke) I did have a sharp pain or two in my uterus one night that woke me but that could have been anything. The past day or two I haven’t felt much. So now the question is when to test. Tomorrow at 5dp5dt is when I got a positive with Coen and it is also our 4 year anniversary. I don’t know if I should skip or test and know it is still early. When you are a POAS addict it is really hard to wait…..
Yesterday was transfer day and it was probably the best transfer I have had yet! They were late as usual in the clinic and they had us come in and wait in the area where the retrieval patients were. I heard the nurse talking to the only retrieval patient of the day saying it was a busy day with all the transfers and the women says I hope all those transfers end up with great results to start the week off right. I thought it was such a selfless comment. How many woman can just come out of retrieval and be wishing a bunch of other women will get pregnant?
I really was the perfect transfer. I have a retroverted uterus so they usually have trouble getting the catheter just right. This time it took one try and the 2 blasts were transferred. He said we hit the “jackpot” with the two expanding blasts. But it isn’t the first time he has said this but I don’t care because I have hope that this will be the one. I have been a couch potato yesterday and today and will try to keep it a low key, easy weekend. I feel very relaxed this time. Maybe it is because I have been through this so many times, maybe I know it will work or maybe I just haven’t gotten to my typical breakdown time of 4-5dp5dt. Only time will tell. Beta is a week from Saturday and I just hope I get some sign of implantation like the flutters I got last time. I really, really hope this is it!
As the weekend winds down my stress levels are on the rise. My anxiety is only increasing as we get closer to the OTD. The Beta Test is on Friday and I took a half day. I figure if it is good news we will celebrate and if it is bad news I do not want the water works at the office. I will go in for blood work in the morning and will get the call some time after noon.
My transfer was on Tuesday and I spent Tuesday and Wednesday on my butt. This was my view for about 2 days straight.
Thursday we spent Thanksgiving with my family up North. It was good to get my mind off of things and I was antsy after two days of being a “couch potato.” My dad’s girlfriend cooked for us and it was our first Thanksgiving spent with my father in about 6 years. We usually spend it with my mom. Turkey looked perfect….
Friday and Saturday were filled with…..not a whole lot. Which brings me to today….5dp5dt or 10dpo. I did test today and yesterday only to see a BFN. My emotions are all over the place. One minute I am sure that this one worked the next I am almost in tears wondering what our next plan of action will be. I am scared. Not seeing a positive yet is making me more nervous. I know it is early. Too early to be worried. But I am still feeling down. My husband banned has made me promise not to test again till Wednesday. At that point I would be 8dp5dt and if it was going to be positive it would most likely show up by then. There are those rare cases where it takes a long time to show up but if I see a negative I will continue to test till Beta Day but I am going to assume this cycle was a bust. As far as symptoms, I have not had many. I was crampy day of transfer but that is because it took the doctor about 15 minutes to get everything situated. We went ahead and transferred two beautiful blasts. He did not give me the grade but here they are before they thawed……the “twins”
I think they did assisted hatching on them like they did last FET. It is kind of protocol for FETs at the clinic if they are not hatching already. Back to the symptoms…..I am bloated/full but that started around Thanksgiving when I started to stress eat. Pretty sure this just has to do with an increase in salt and carbs. I have had some “twinges,” cramps and weird pulsing sensations. I looked at last FET and I had the same cramps and twinges as I do now so that’s not anything promising. The only different feeling was the pulsing/poking on my left side but who knows I may have experienced it before. It happened once or twice yesterday and today a few times and does not last long. Maybe 10 to 15 flutters and then it disappears. I really can’t describe it but it is on left side further in then where my ovary is. Oddly enough I am feeling it right now. The thing is I am super sensitive to everything so any pain, pinch, ache could all be in my head. I have had no spotting, sore boobs, increased smells, etc. I am not sure what to think. I want this to be the cycle. I don’t think I can take another failed one. Now I have 3 sleeps till I get to test again. Hmmm…how will I make it?
Today I am officially PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise)! I have a great feeling about this one. We got right in and the RE told us we hit the jackpot. The blastocyst that we were transferring was a grade A and 3 blasts also made it to freeze. We chose to do a eSET (elective Single Embryo Transfer) for many reasons. Our risk of twins is very high and standing at only 5’1, twins being a high risk pregnancy and the cost of twins are all reasons we have chose to do one embryo for all three transfers. IF this one does not work we will move onto two embryos. But this one will work right??!? The RE also gave us a 70% chance this time!!!!! Here is a pic of our soon to be baby.
Tomorrow is the big day we have been waiting for!!! It is transfer day! We are scheduled to be there at 9am with a full bladder and transfer will be at 9:15. I will tell you what not to do. DO NOT drink as much as possible thinking a full bladder means an about to explode bladder. During the Frozen Embryo Transfer, I decided to drink as much as possible and then they were almost an hour late. I was told from the ultrasound tech that I won the prize for fullest bladder of the day! Ha Ha!
Doug sent me a link saying we have luck on our side and that this Friday is a blue moon! So this one has to work right?!? I hope so! Things just feel right. I feel like I am mentally in a better state then the last transfer. I have been working out again and eating better and just feel like this could actually work!