Happy Valentines Day!!!! We don’t really celebrate the day so Doug will be going to hockey tonight and I will be doing homework and hitting bed early. Tomorrow I will officially 5 weeks. So far I am feeling pretty good. I am tired but still chugging along. I went in for my second beta on Monday which was 428! So the doubling time was 42ish hours and I think they like to see it at least between 48-72. I am finally getting more comfortable with this pregnancy and my constant fear of it being taken away has decreased a little after the second beta. I go back in again next Monday for my last beta and then they will book an ultrasound. My betas are on the higher end but not extremely high which would almost guarantee me twins. It could go either way at this point. I am just hoping for one strong little one in there. My RE was concerned with my size and having twins. I KNOW it is possible but I would like the least risk pregnancy I could get. That being said I will be happy either way. Just ready to find out!
I can’t believe the weekend is almost here! Last weekend was our celebratory weekend and we also had snow, snow and more snow.
There was so much snow when I woke up Saturday morning I literally had to toss Duncan outside because the snow was over his head! He wasn’t so helpful while I shoveled the back deck.
Now this was not a fun task but the hubby did most of the front because the snow blower died so I felt like I should help out. It was light snow so it was more time consuming than anything. Luckily a neighbor let him borrow their snow blower the next day so he could do the other half. Isn’t that what always happens? The snow blower dies on the day of a blizzard.
Another snowy day! We have not had too many of these this winter so I don’t mind it. Duncan loves when I make him pose outside in the snow. You can just tell by his facial expression. Ha!
I did my good deed and attempted to drive into work. After about 45 minutes of driving I was only 15 minutes from my house. At that point I said “this is crazy” and turned around and I am working from home today.
This is after I turned around. There was only light traffic heading home instead of that stop and go. But I love the way the trees look after snowfall.
FET #3 Update
Friday came around and I had still not heard anything back from the clinic. I gave them a call because I was on my second pack of birth control and needed refills to make it though the weekend. I left them a message and maybe 5 minutes later I get a call back saying we heard your voice mail and it looks like insurance is approved. Argh. Not sure why they didn’t call me sooner. So annoying but anyway YAY insurance was approved. So my first baseline ultrasound and blood work was Monday and I started estrace that night. I go back to the clinic for a lining check next Friday the 25th. I HOPE my lining is good and we should be transferring January 31st! That’s only 2 weeks from tomorrow! Yes, I have a million exclamation points because I am that excited. This off cycle was soooo long. If this one works come October I will be getting one hell of a birthday present! I so am hoping this one is it. We both finished our Z-packs and I will be on another antibiotic before transfer so I am praying this does the trick and I end up pregnant.
After the bad news I cracked open a bottle of wine. I also ate a bunch of crap food and went to bed early. My plan was to wake up and go to the gym but I forgot I had to work this morning.
When I woke on this fine day in December it was snowing. It looked beautiful out. So peaceful. Duncan loves the snow. If you notice he is starting to get grey under the chin. My poor baby is getting older.
I plan to get going on a new workout routine. I always feel when I get a new one it gets me excited to go back to the gym. To be honest I am tired. My body is tired. It has been through a lot this past year. I am going to listen to it and take it easy today….unless I get some crazy boost of energy. Maybe a CAFFEINATED coffee would do the trick. Yes, I can finally have caffeine again. I also plan on searching for some new recipes. I like to cook in bulk on Sundays for the week. Then when I get home from work I don’t have to stress about making something. I think I need to go out shopping for some Christmas decor for our mantle soon. It is looking quite pathetic with just two cheap stockings hanging. I also need to decide whether I am going to take a class next semester. I took this one off. Can you tell I am trying to fill my head with anything not TTC related? Oh and for the record….yes I know I have not updated my age yet from 29 to 30 in the about me. I am just not ready to admit I am in my 30’s. Happy December!
Since I have stayed away from the blog world for a few weeks I thought I would do a recap of what I have been up to. I have been working out A LOT. Have I lost any weight? No. But I feel so much better and I think I have put on a lot of muscle. I feel leaner overall and good about myself. I feel like I could do about ten posts on body image and the struggles with it during infertility treatments. I have been eating very healthy…every 3 hours and mostly gluten free so my tummy is happy.
I have been slacking on my blogging. I am starting to come out of my depression after another failed cycle. Monday will be another sonohysterogram and a biopsy. We are still waiting on blood work results for the karyotype test and we are not expecting to hear back for a few more weeks. We are still planning to start a frozen embryo transfer sometime at end of October. They won’t submit any paperwork till we get our results back though. Soooo more waiting! What’s new? IVF and TTC is always a waiting game. I am not giving up hope. As much as I am scared this could never work I still have faith we will get our baby.
I decided to drop the class I signed up for for the Fall. We have waaaay too much going on. We have 2 weddings, a concert and my 30th b-day all in October and then the holidays will be here! I do love this time of year. I just noticed that the first day of fall is tomorrow?!?! Could that be right? Here is a silly Fall pic from a few years ago. Yes, I am a tree hugger. Haha
I keep telling myself I need to put together a list of goals for myself to give me something to focus on. Especially since I am not taking a class. Things like eat cleaner and gluten free, try new foods, etc. I really have no plans this weekend so I SHOULD be able to come up with a list. Here’s a goofy Duncan pic…..Notice the stack of mags on the floor. Yes, add this one to the list: Go through magazines (I am a magazine addict and hoarder and damn proud of it)
I tested again this morning but it was negative. Beta will be in the morning. I am pretty much sure it will be negative but always have hope that I will get a nice surprise. My husband is gone for the weekend for a bachelor party and I know he felt bad leaving but I really don’t mind. I am just going to focus on me this weekend. Do some reading, cleaning, cooking and relaxing. All things that can help me de-stress. It will just be me and the pooch! I am going to continue to think of all the positives in my life. I will grieve and then move on. I called and made an appointment with the Dr for Wednesday. I am interested to see what she has to say and what kind of tests we may do.
The nice thing about finding a down side of something is that there is ALWAYS an up side to it. After complaining of being bored and being stuck being a couch potato because of IVF I decided to take Duncan, my kindle, camera and a blanket to a park about 15 minutes away. Since it was mid week it was very quiet. I spent a few hours reading, relaxing and listening to the the sound of bag pipes someone was playing not so far away. Even though the blanket was not as comfy as the couch it was the best decision I could have made to get out of the house. I am all about being positive right now. Plus Duncan Doodle enjoyed watching the squirrels and birds. Here is our little spot:
A picture of me and Duncan relaxing. Note I forgot his leash so had to create a makeshift one out of poop bags! I don’t think he was very pleased with me about this one.
Since housework (including cooking) was on my DO NOT DO List I made some crock-pot salsa chicken for dinner. This was the first time I made it so it is definitely a work in progress but it was really good and super easy.
Spicy Crockpot Salsa Chicken
About 3lbs of Chicken
Salsa- One container (I used the fresher ones found near the deli not the jars but either works)
1 package of taco seasoning
A few large tomatoes
1 T Minced Garlic
A few shakes of:
Mrs. Dash Fiesta Lime
Cayenne Pepper (I like it spicy)
Throw everything in Crock-pot on Low for 6-7 hours
If around shred chicken midway or wait till fully cook and shred (should look like pulled chicken)
I ate it plain because I was picking at everything and anything today but it would be good in a tortilla or lettuce wrap, served with tortilla chips, on rice or quinoa.