Lining Check and Transfer on Monday

FET #1 for Baby #2

I had my first lining check last Wednesday but it was a no go.  My lining was only 6.3mm and at best it needs to be at least 8 before they schedule the transfer.  I was bumped up from 2mg Estrace twice a day to 2mg three times a day.  I had a second lining check on Monday and my lining was 8.6 but due to scheduling they had me come in one more time this past Wednesday.  My lining at that point was 8.8mm.  We started PIO shots Wednesday night and we have transfer this Monday at 10:30am!  I am excited/nervous for the transfer.  It has been over two years since our last transfer for Coen.  I don’t want to feel the heartache of a failed cycle but I also know that it took a lot last time.  I am not expecting it to work the first time or the second.  I am going into it with the knowledge that it worked once before and there is no reason it could not happen again.  We are also only transferring one blast which might decrease our chances a bit.

Cleared for FET

FET #4 Update

I didn’t think I would be writing this but I have been cleared to start a frozen embryo cycle!  I honestly thought we may not even get the chance to try for #2.  Why is it we always think the worst case scenario?  It looks like all is good with my liver from a biopsy point.  My gastro will be monitoring my liver levels during the cycle just in case.  I am also waiting to hear on the genetic test for Celiac disease.  I started Estrace Friday night and return for an ultrasound on March 3rd.  Depending on my lining, we will most likely be transferring the week of March 8th with a beta right before our 4th anniversary.

Valentine’s Weekend

The hubby and I don’t celebrate Valentine’ Day but we did spend the night away for a wedding 2 hours north.  It was only the second time we have left Coen overnight but it was good to get away especially after the biopsy and stress I had been dealing with.  I did indulge in a few cocktails and it was probably the first time I have had over two drinks in about two years.  It would have been relaxing if we didn’t hit a storm both ways there and back.  A little pic from the day.

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No Period and More Pills

FET #4

Ever have one of those days you just feel like no matter what you do things just go wrong?  Today is one of those days.  I didn’t sleep well and came into work having to deal with chaos.  I  just got off the phone with the clinic and I am starting to feel like we may never start FET #4.  My body is not cooperating and I am beginning to be come frustrated.  So far 7 days of Provera and nothing and  then 10 days of Estrace plus 5 days of Provera with only spotting.  Now I have to go on 30 fregin days of Estrace with the dose doubled and 10 days on Provera all just to get a period so I can do the basic testing.  The worst part is the nurse saying she wasn’t sure why they even had me do only ten days of Estrace because that never works.  Argh. It was just more time wasted. I never thought it would be this difficult or that my body wouldn’t get back to normal on it’s own.  Why did I even stop breastfeeding at a year?  Part of me just wants to quit before we even start BUT if I quit when it got hard I wouldn’t be seeing that cute little face every morning.  So back on the fat pills starting tomorrow.  Unless I change my mind……

Enough of my rant and the poor me because there are so many out there without even one child.  I just need to learn to enjoy this journey as much as I can.  We had a few pics taken last week for our Christmas cards this year…..here are a few that we have on it!

 

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Hurry up and wait…..

FET #4 Update

There must be something with infertility that always has us waiting.  I have weaned Coen well over a month ago now and still no period.  I have taken a week of Provera and waited two weeks after….nothing.  Now I am on Estrace for 10 days and then Provera and will wait some more.  Once it starts I can get all the tests done so we can submit to insurance and then start a FET cycle.   I forgot how much I hate waiting.  Luckily, I have a great little distraction that keeps me going every day.

I have been quite frustrated the way the scale has been going up since weaning.  My body is doing what it wants despite me watching what I eat, exercising and taking into account that I don’t need the extra calories.  Now to add in the hormones I am bloated, uncomfortable, pants are getting tighter and I am starting to not sleep well.  Oh the joys of estrogen…..

On a positive note, I did find a picture of one year ago after having Coen and compared it to a picture from this weekend.  I have made a lot of progress over the year.  I also have started to realize that despite weaning my body is not mine again.  It will all be worth it though.

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Life Lately

Life is busy as expected with a 13 month old.  Some things have gotten easier and some have gotten more difficult.  I think the biggest improvement is his bedtime routine has gotten better and he is sleeping all the way through the night.  We give a sippy cup of milk and a little snack at 7 pm, read at 7:20 and he goes down without a peep.  There are also no 5 am wake ups every morning.  He sleeps most days until 6:30am.  Pretty sure he was playing me and if I just did a little sleep training I could have gotten this months ago.

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The little guy has been sick the past few weeks with a cold and fever.  I took off last Monday when he was feeling the worst and his fever was 101.  Luckily I think he is finally getting better but he just has that lingering cough.  Poor guy.  He got sick last year but it was nothing like this.  There was nothing I could do to help and all he wanted was to cry and give hugs.

I am looking forward to a 5 day weekend and some yummy food for Thanksgiving!  We will be hosting Thanksgiving but it will be small.  Just the hubby, Coen, my sister, father and me which means lots of turkey leftovers!  We are doing family pictures on Friday and I am excited to see how they come out.  If they are good we will be using one of them for Christmas Cards.  We already got pics with Santa this weekend.  They didn’t come out so great because Coen was just about to break out crying.  I think the stranger fear is in full effect.

Happy Thanksgiving!

 

FET #4 for Baby #2

FET # 4 and TTC #2 Update

Happy First week of October!  I can’t believe in less than 2 weeks my baby boy will be 1!  Picture is from one of our many outtakes of Coen for his birthday invites! 

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It has been awhile since I have given any update besides Coen’s monthly ones but……a few weeks ago we had our first appointment for trying for baby #2! We have 3 frozen embryos so it makes sense to go that we use those first.  The RE said we have two day 5 and one day 6 embryos waiting for us.  I think it would be crazy to think of Coen having a brother or sister from the same IVF cycle.  I am excited and scared.  What if it doesn’t work a second time?  Are we ready?  How many tries do I try this before giving up? I still have not gotten my period so I think it may not show until I have completely weaned.  Our next steps….wean Coen….period shows, blood work and ultrasound and then once we are cleared we will start FET #4.  She mentioned we could start as early as January!  It was a January cycle that I got Coen but I am not expecting this to work the first time after what we went through.  We also have made the decision to only transfer one at a time.  In the past, we have done both one and two.  We just don’t want to risk twins but also know it could take that much longer.

Weaning

I have a hefty stash of frozen milk so I decided to start weaning Coen at 11 months.  I am not sure how far it will get us but it will definitely bring us until after his first birthday.  Weaning is bittersweet and I never thought I would be this emotional about it. To be honest, I never thought I would make it this far or that it would be this hard hard to stop.  I sometimes wonder if I would be weaning if we weren’t planning on trying for another one.  I am ready to have my body completely back to me but I am going to miss it.  I hope he still wants to cuddle or still needs me as much as he does now.  I am sure our last time will bring tears and I am not sure I am quite ready for that yet.  Coen is down to 4 feedings a day.  Two bottles at daycare and I nurse him in the morning and at bedtime. Over the past few weeks I have dropped the daytime feedings.  I was pumping 5 times a day while I was away.  Last Friday I pumped for the last time at work.  I will not miss it at all.  I am holding strong at just nursing in the morning and at night.  I am not sure I am ready to drop these yet.  Weaning is far more emotional than I ever thought it would be but I also have this longing to give Coen a little brother or sister.  Again, this is all just a reminder of how we don’t have the luxury to just blink our eyes and be pregnant.  But it is what it is and I am willing to go through it all again because it was so worth it.