FET # 4 and TTC #2 Update
Happy First week of October! I can’t believe in less than 2 weeks my baby boy will be 1! Picture is from one of our many outtakes of Coen for his birthday invites!
It has been awhile since I have given any update besides Coen’s monthly ones but……a few weeks ago we had our first appointment for trying for baby #2! We have 3 frozen embryos so it makes sense to go that we use those first. The RE said we have two day 5 and one day 6 embryos waiting for us. I think it would be crazy to think of Coen having a brother or sister from the same IVF cycle. I am excited and scared. What if it doesn’t work a second time? Are we ready? How many tries do I try this before giving up? I still have not gotten my period so I think it may not show until I have completely weaned. Our next steps….wean Coen….period shows, blood work and ultrasound and then once we are cleared we will start FET #4. She mentioned we could start as early as January! It was a January cycle that I got Coen but I am not expecting this to work the first time after what we went through. We also have made the decision to only transfer one at a time. In the past, we have done both one and two. We just don’t want to risk twins but also know it could take that much longer.
I have a hefty stash of frozen milk so I decided to start weaning Coen at 11 months. I am not sure how far it will get us but it will definitely bring us until after his first birthday. Weaning is bittersweet and I never thought I would be this emotional about it. To be honest, I never thought I would make it this far or that it would be this hard hard to stop. I sometimes wonder if I would be weaning if we weren’t planning on trying for another one. I am ready to have my body completely back to me but I am going to miss it. I hope he still wants to cuddle or still needs me as much as he does now. I am sure our last time will bring tears and I am not sure I am quite ready for that yet. Coen is down to 4 feedings a day. Two bottles at daycare and I nurse him in the morning and at bedtime. Over the past few weeks I have dropped the daytime feedings. I was pumping 5 times a day while I was away. Last Friday I pumped for the last time at work. I will not miss it at all. I am holding strong at just nursing in the morning and at night. I am not sure I am ready to drop these yet. Weaning is far more emotional than I ever thought it would be but I also have this longing to give Coen a little brother or sister. Again, this is all just a reminder of how we don’t have the luxury to just blink our eyes and be pregnant. But it is what it is and I am willing to go through it all again because it was so worth it.