Of course about a week late again but pics and stats are from 2 months!
Everyday I feel like a different person. The days I get a decent nights sleep I feel great and then the days I am waking 2-3 times a night or can’t fall asleep after a night feeding I feel awful. I have always needed a good nights sleep to be at my best. I am not one of those people that can function on minimal sleep but I am learning how to (sort of). In a little over two weeks I go back to work. I am pretty much having an anxiety attack over it! It is bittersweet. In one way it will be good to get back to a routine and I think having a career of my own is healthy for me as well. I worked hard to get my masters and it would feel a little bit of a waste if I could not use it. Could I (mentally) be a stay at home mom if we could swing it? Definitely. On the not so sweet side, it hurts to think I will be missing so much of my son’s life. In a perfect world, I would be part time or work from home or would work part time. Or of course if we win the lottery and never have to work would actually be ideal! Haha! I just don’t see that happening anytime soon.
Body (Please ignore the cheesy pics):
Although I do see some changes on measurements, I only lost about 1.5 lbs. I am now 5lbs away from my pre-pregnancy weight and about 12lbs away from pre-IVF weight. The first few weeks of this month my diet was not so perfect. I ate well during the day but then I ate a lot at night so I know that played a factor in things. I have cleaned it up but scale is hardly budging and that extra flub seems to be sticking around. I am trying not to let it bother me and know that my body is doing a lot right now. It is providing life for our son and I need to not let a little extra weight bother me. I would never stop breastfeeding just to lose the weight. I am actually beginning to enjoy breastfeeding because it creates such a bond between us and I know in a few short weeks I will not be able to it as much. Instead I will be bonding with that damn breast pump.
I am hitting the gym 5 days a week still and mostly lifting. This week after the scale has been at a standstill for 3 weeks I have upped my game and added in some cardio intervals a few times a week. I am not a big fan of cardio but since I am keeping my calories high to keep my milk supply up I need to burn them another way. I have been tracking my calories and only creating a small deficit. I have dropped it about 200 calories and keeping a close eye on it. If it affects my milk supply I will eat more.
I have been also been trying to keep my motivation up by following some positive influences. I love Natalie Hodson. She has such a positive perspective on things and is so real in her postpartum journey. She also looks absolutely amazing after having her second almost 10lb baby.
Goals for month 3: At least 3 20-30 minute cardio sessions, eat more veggies, not beat myself up and keep track of calories. If I can do all this, lose weight during the holidays and going back to work, I deserve something nice like a massage or new gym gear!