4dp5dt ~ Not feeling it

FET #3 Update

The lack of symptoms has me scared to death.  Last cycle with the chemical I had these twinges and flutters at 4-5dp5dt and I knew I was pregnant but this time feels like all the other failed cycles.  My body just feels quiet.  I really had hope this time with the diagnosis of endometritis and the antibiotic regiment I was put on.  I KNOW it is still early and I have not given up hope entirely but I am just feeling out already.  I have had no symptoms, no cramps, no pokes or twinges.  I only had  a minor backache yesterday but that was just from tweaking it some how and I am no longer feeling that.  I hope I am wrong. I hope I get to be one of these women that said they had no symptoms during the TWW but this feels all to familiar.  I just don’t know how I am going to get through the next week feeling like this.  Now I am second guessing what we will do next.  Should we go straight to adoption and save ourselves some heartache of more failed cycles?  Our next step was to do PGD testing of the embryos but that is still 2 more cycles.  One a fresh IVF with a freeze all after testing and then a FET with the “normal” embryos.  So that FET probably wouldn’t even be till the summer.  I haven’t tested and to be honest I don’t even know if I want to.  Seeing a BFN everyday is extremely painful.  Maybe I should just wait till Friday or Saturday and test right before the beta.  It is just miserable sitting at work trying to not think about that wretched negative HPT that you took earlier that morning. Sigh.


6 thoughts on “4dp5dt ~ Not feeling it

  1. Courtney says:

    Hey, Kim. Please don’t read into any of this – symptoms that many people feel during a cycle are simply caused by progesterone, estrogen, and ovaries feeling out of whack. You can’t read into anything. And you can’t read into nothing. I had no symptoms with Matthew and this last cycle with the exception of implantation spotting. Without that, I would have felt nothing at all during the TWW.

    Head up, young person!

    • Kim says:

      You are right. I need to relax and just realize it is out of my control. Hoping I do get a wonderful surprise at the end of this week! Just need to breathe!

  2. Mrs D says:

    I keep my fingers crossed! When is your testdate? To cheer you up a little, if you had a 2 day transfer the wait would be even longer!!! Have you tested any yet? I have, of course a positive test due to the trigger shot 🙂 but it was not as weak as I thought it would have been.

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