The Weekend Flew…

I had a really good weekend but it flew by.  It is my mother’s birthday on Thursday so I met up with her over my sister’s place.  My sister gave us both a haircut and then we lounged around for a bit till we finally got motivated to go get a mani/pedi.  Don’t get me wrong I am far from a girly girl.  Getting my hair done and a pedicure are far from routine for me.  Even having my sister being a hairdresser, I probably get my hair cut less than most.  My sister is just the opposite of me.  She is all into that kind of stuff.  Well  I wanted to spend time together rather then just meet up for dinner somewhere.  As I get older, I have realized how quickly life goes and I really cherish the time that I spend with my mom and sister.  As my mom got a manicure she had a permanent smile.  It was probably one of the best gifts we could give her: time together.

The great weekend lead to a not so great Monday.  I could not fall asleep last night for the life of me.  12:30 rolled around and I was still up.  When the alarm went off at 5:30 it was a struggle to move.  Things just started going wrong: Leaving the house I fell down the stairs on my bum and had to run back inside and change because my pants were soaked, my lunch leaked all over the bag it was in, I forgot to pack t-shirts in my gym back and had to buy some at the company store on lunch and an early meeting turned ugly when I was put on the spot and just couldn’t think from lack of sleep.

I am not sure why I did not sleep well but last night the anxiety started.  I think it is a mix of pre-FET jitters and fear of another failed cycle, worry about transfer falling on days I NEED to be at work and starting a new class.  I think another thing that is bothering me is that this is the month I would be giving birth if IVF #1 had worked.  I feel a sense of loss.

I at least went to the gym and had a great workout.  I did some weight lifting circuits and then 30 minutes of cardio.  I did a walking treadmill workout but added some running at the end.

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2 thoughts on “The Weekend Flew…

  1. I’m sorry your day was so awful. Some days just go like that, right? Sometimes, we just can’t salvage them. I had one of these over the holidays and it knocked me down!

    I am anxious for your FET! I understand feeling sad about this month and its relationship to IVF #1. There are reminder everywhere of what we don’t have, but have worked so hard to get. BUT – you’ll get there. I know it!

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