I was up early this morning with a stomach ache and cramps. Could be the fact that dinner was popcorn and an ice cream bar! Feeling a bit nauseous and crampy but not sure if those are symptoms or just my body saying “what the hell?” I am trying not to obsess over every little could be symptom. It will drive me insane.
It is labor day weekend and I am headed up to my friend’s lake house for the night. She is home from Colorado so we are doing a little girls day/night with a few other friends. I think it will be great to get away and try not to worry about all that is going on. I went to the store this morning to pick up some fruit and munchies. I figure if I can bring some healthy snacks I can’t eat crappy the WHOLE time. So I packed cucumbers, tomatoes from our garden, carrots, celery and fruit.
I am not going to lie. I have NO desire to be in a bathing suit in front of anyone right now. I am a stressed and when I am stressed I eat. Think I am up about 3-5lbs this IVF. I am doing my best not to beat myself up. I know if this fails I will hop back on that treadmill and if it doesn’t well who cares if I gained some weight and I can still continue to exercise during pregnancy right? I know a lot of women out there have an unhealthy relationship with their body. I am way to hard on myself but I am working on it. I wish I could just wear whatever I want and be comfortable but I never have been able to.
Back home from the lake and we had a lot of fun and a lot of laughs which is what I needed. I haven’t been feeling much so I get this worry in the pit of my stomach that this could be another failed IVF. I want to be positive but everyone else seems to get cramps, pinches and twinges. Or they just seem to know that the cycle worked right away. I WAS told I have a 70% chance so I just need to remember this and try to be positive.